As i carried my horn under my arm pit and my files in the other hand, walked off from the stage of my last performance, i was trying hard to phathom myself and my own wiring thoughts.

That was my last performance in stnicks. After spending near 4 years of my secondary life with mr horny, how will life in school be like without any more band? No more morning assembly, no more setting up, no more seeing my section and my horns, no more miss sia ( about that, im glad that i need not see her anymore), no more rushing down for band after school, no more embouchere studies, no more scales, no more holding notes, no more worrying about how my braces will affect my playing, no more combine, no more…………………. Was i feeling happy or sad? I myself the author of my own life, have no answer to that. I’ve been somehow waiting and looking forward to this day, to some extent, really desperately. However, after the performance walking down the stage and to the holding room , i felt not a single tinge of growing excitement nor this burning sensation in me to wanna jump out high and scream my lungs out in exhilaration. There was just this peaceful silence ringing ironically in my head and knocking the doors of my heart. As i walked back talking to jiaying about our performance back on stage, i knew that will be the last we will be discussing about stuff like that. ” oh no! did we play well!!!??” …….” ya i was shivering on stage can! quite frightening”… ……”i was kinda afraid i would screw up my three note solo ahha!”……..”did we rush!i think we did la!”…..

well okay i wrote that the day after jubilate. and today’s..2 days after my pop. Passing Out Parade 2007. i must say that i’m still in a state of shock and disbelief that im actually a sec4 and has already left my cca.

im getting all so sentimental and nostalgic. ): people, i really miss all my juniors and squad mates and seniors. VJ band concert did stir up all my memories with my seniors. the most direct memories = with phyllinda hah! i realised i got so used to saying :” eh! people! keep quiet! oie juniors! ” ahha.

well i shall just blog over at my spongeyy_bobby.blogspot.com blog! this site is abit unknown…

It is kinda AMAZING how these people have become so ambitious and rowdy just with a snap of the fingers ( or at least this was what i’ve observed for the past few weeks). To be frank, it’s disappointing, heart breaking and irritating. I can your true colours exposing, everything …that maybe, you were trying to hide and conceal for the past years. Well, perhaps this is the sensitive period and everyone’s trying to prove one another, or trying…i don’t know what is going on in their skull. But all i have to say is that i never knew you people as what i have been seeing you as these few days. Changed. Times have changed, you have changed…sadly, for the worst ( tht’s applying to only one of you).

And just a reminder, we are still in our positions. We have our responsibility and to some extent, authority and rights. It’s always not very pleasant for us to re-emphasize our authority and status. i believe none of us like to use our authority to suppress you people, as we want us to have a friendly relationship yet, with respect. However, when the time arrives, or when circumstance in which you created for us appear, we will definitely have to re-emphasize that we are still ya.. you should understand. Even for those w/o any status, they still have the right to reprimand or correct you because, we are older and i believe, know much more?

Lastly, we are still existant. Don’t worry, you will have a fair chance to prove yourself to whoever you want to prove. And we are getting out soon like how you want us to. It’s just a matter of a few weeks, to be exact, 2 weeks. Hold your anxiety and contain your excitement. And do us a favour, be more sensible and matured. This is great enough to show us that you are truly an ideal leader.  

 all the best and good luck. and again, that thing has an owner, sso please ask for permission alright. It’s only right to ask.

Anyway, away from those emo topics, sports day yesterday was rather… disappointing. but at least the brasses managed to play their fanfare and took some rather nice pictures at the forum (: it kept raining and raining!!!!! > : ( GRRRRRR! yeah on the brighter side, i fulfilled my duties to cam whore! and take many photos 8) 

 next upcoming event..jubilte 2007 =\ yucks.  band camp + noms (: and POP’07  ): 8) ): :B ):

hi peeps.

new blog of mine! (:

just wondering, what is in the mind of that psychotic cho south korean guy who went on a massacre

in his university. Extremist.

I’ve chanced upon this sentence on the papers and i found it really meaningful

here goes..

” The Plain Janes among us may have the last laugh, having had time to rely less on style and more on substance.”

Food for thought (: