As i carried my horn under my arm pit and my files in the other hand, walked off from the stage of my last performance, i was trying hard to phathom myself and my own wiring thoughts.

That was my last performance in stnicks. After spending near 4 years of my secondary life with mr horny, how will life in school be like without any more band? No more morning assembly, no more setting up, no more seeing my section and my horns, no more miss sia ( about that, im glad that i need not see her anymore), no more rushing down for band after school, no more embouchere studies, no more scales, no more holding notes, no more worrying about how my braces will affect my playing, no more combine, no more…………………. Was i feeling happy or sad? I myself the author of my own life, have no answer to that. I’ve been somehow waiting and looking forward to this day, to some extent, really desperately. However, after the performance walking down the stage and to the holding room , i felt not a single tinge of growing excitement nor this burning sensation in me to wanna jump out high and scream my lungs out in exhilaration. There was just this peaceful silence ringing ironically in my head and knocking the doors of my heart. As i walked back talking to jiaying about our performance back on stage, i knew that will be the last we will be discussing about stuff like that. ” oh no! did we play well!!!??” …….” ya i was shivering on stage can! quite frightening”… ……”i was kinda afraid i would screw up my three note solo ahha!”……..”did we rush!i think we did la!”…..

well okay i wrote that the day after jubilate. and today’s..2 days after my pop. Passing Out Parade 2007. i must say that i’m still in a state of shock and disbelief that im actually a sec4 and has already left my cca.

im getting all so sentimental and nostalgic. ): people, i really miss all my juniors and squad mates and seniors. VJ band concert did stir up all my memories with my seniors. the most direct memories = with phyllinda hah! i realised i got so used to saying :” eh! people! keep quiet! oie juniors! ” ahha.

well i shall just blog over at my spongeyy_bobby.blogspot.com blog! this site is abit unknown…