Everything used to be so perfect and pretty between us.
Sadly, I’m feeling this really bad wall sitting between our faces. So many a times, when you’re just right beside, you feel yet so far away and distant. And i fucking fucking hate that feeling.
Our objectives are beginning to differ. We’re both seeing things at different light. I dont know how are we going to make this work.
Im getting so lethargic with flag and my life during the hols and yet you’re always not there to help me deal with it or make things better.
You’re so caught up with engin stuff and helping friends in engin that you proclaim are more important to you and your future in your studies and life. The more involved you get with engin and lesser time and focus you have for our relationship, the greater the resentment and hatred i have against them and the more i refuse to do stuff for engin and hang out with them.
I hate to feel this way. I never wanted our relationship to head in this direction. Probably that was why i did not want to get so involved with someone right at the beginning in case such scenarios happen.
I feel so devastated and infuriated, that you would rather spend the night past midnight chatting w them rather than replying your gf’s messages asking her if she’s alright or whether her day went good, despite knowing that she’s at camp although she’s ill. I tried not to make a big fuss out of it. I tried not to get affected by it. But its all these little little actions that sometimes pile up and made me so angry over time.
All the sweet gestures that you used to do and say to me are so elusive now. I dont know how you feel. I dont know if you know how i feel. Im getting lost in this maze.
